Repost: From Within

Once a miserable 388 pounds, I decided I loved myself enough to try. Try to be better. Be happier, be healthier, and lose the weight. All the weight: emotional, spiritual, physical.

When you're in a dark, cold space trapped under 388 pounds light seems non-existent. I traveled many dark, foggy tunnels before I saw a glimpse of light. I had a negative spirit, negative attitude, and a negative outlook. In the depths of darkness, however, there was a nagging voice within, telling me: I deserved more. I was worthy. I could be better. After sitting still with myself and some serious soul searching I was able to hear that voice loud and clear. The voice within instructed me to stop wallowing in my pity, put my thoughts to action, and create the life I envisioned for myself.  The voice within gave me hope, courage, and belief. The voice is the very reason I was able to see my way out of the dark, foggy tunnel. I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life. Today, I stand in the light. 

Originally posted on December 30, 2011

What A Difference A Year Makes

A year ago (October 31, 2009) I had a major blowout with my fella that led to us eventually breaking up. Our break up was pretty traumatic, but also enlightening for me. I believe that out of every bad experience comes something good. Granted, sometimes it may take a while for the good to surface. And, in this case the good has surfaced!

The transition has not been easy, but I’ve made some HUGE strides to improve my life. It started with emotional and spiritual cleansing – soul searching, which eventually led me to become serious about my health and weight. Over the past year, I’ve broke through barriers that once seemed unbreakable. As 2010 comes to a close I have a few more goals I’d like to achieve. If I continue to stay focused there’s no doubt I can make my goals.  I’m proud of the person I’m evolving into…I’m a work in progress.



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