So I was out walking recently, my mind more relaxed and the song came on in the shuffle. I finally really got the full context of the message...Yes, rap music usually has a message.
If I could start my life from scratch
If I could take away the pain off my past
If I had another chance I would do just that
I'd give anything just to go right back
Aha! That's just it -- all the events of my life, tragic and not so tragic make me who I am.
- The busted down training wheels on my bike as a girl
- Having a child at 20 years old and raising her by myself
- Tipping the scales at 388 lbs.
- And, my defining moment...The darkest, coldest winter I've EVER experienced -- 2009 has transformed me into the beautiful, vibrant, fit, woman I am today.
While suffering through that long, dark winter I could not see any light. I didn't even conceive there was light. Ha but out of the darkness I found myself and as a result I've created myself. If I had to do it all over, no doubt, I'd start from scratch.