Truly, Madly, Deeply

My first week of classes in the fitness trainer program are off to a good start. I'm looking forward to learning lots and making tons of new connections. Speaking of... Monday in class, I met a tall, dark, New Yorker. We chatted a little. He was friendly, and from our brief encounter it seemed we had at least a few things in common. He asked for my phone number. We exchanged a few text messages that day, no biggie. Then, yesterday, after class he asked if we could meet and chat. We agreed on a time and place. Well, today, I was at the place, at the time, but he wasn't. I gave him the benefit of doubt and waited for ten minutes. Once the clock struck 25 after I was gone.

The old me would have waited at least a half hour and I probably would have texted or called him to find out his whereabouts. I also would have questioned myself. Why did he stand me up? What's wrong with me? Oh, the thoughts that would have filled my insecure, unsure mind. But, I'm so happy and proud to say those types of behaviors are long behind me. There is nothing wrong with me. The issue here is that he didn't have the decency to text me to say he was unable to make it. I should mention I have no idea if he was trying to hit on me. Perhaps he was just wanting to meet as classmates, however the old me would've automatically assumed he wanted more. And whether he was hopeful to date me or not, the fact still remains he did not show up and that's plain rude.

Is it that big of a deal? Should I really take the time to blog about it? Yes, because this ladies and gentleman is about me and my behavior. Not his. It's about the way that I reacted to the situation and how I've grown as a person. The old me would have placed all the value in some guy I barely knew. Seeking, searching, approval and attention from any outside source to validate me. No longer. I value my time. I value myself. It's been a long time coming -- the process of self-love and worth. It's not just tied to any one incident, certainly not this incident, but instead a multitude of instances, situations, and lots of lots self-reflection. I truly, madly, deeply love myself. I'm the girl who shops at Neiman Marcus.

Doing it

I live by the ubiquitous Nike slogan "Just Do It." I spent quite a bit of my life on the sidelines, but no longer I put things in motion. Gone are the days of sitting around, contemplating. I make it happen. I'm a doer. With this type of attitude, 170 lbs. gone forever... I talk the talk. I walk the walk. For those who are still contemplating, might I suggest: "Just Do It!"

Today, I was featured on "LiveWell's" blog. Check it out: Chrisetta Mosley keeps inspiring

NO!

I've been thinking, and I've come to the conclusion, I don't mind being told no. When someone tells me no it just adds fuel to my already ignited fire. Telling me no just means I dig deeper. I'd prefer to be told no ten times rather than told yes just once. I know, preposterous. Just think though if you were told yes all the time you would never find  the other gear.

When someone tells me no, I always think of the now, famous author J.K. Rowling. Her Harry Potter manuscript was rejected on numerous occasions. She was told no multiple times. If she's anything like me, every time she was told no, she went back to the drawing board and came up with another plan. She never gave up on herself. She believed in herself and Harry Potter. Look at her now, a successful author, film writer, and multi-millionaire probably close to a billonaire. So here I am working really hard to get the one yes that is going to make the difference. In the meanwhile, tell me no again. I double dare you.

Crap!

I'm really, really disgusted by the fast-food industry. I see so many advertisements for so much crappy so-called food. And, it seems fast-food restaurants just try to out do themselves with gross concoction after gross concoction. More frightening is the fact that folks are buying this crap. Heavy, heavy sigh.

Major offenders:

Sonic

 Taco Bell

KFC

Bananas

It took me while, but I've finally come to the realization that I only sorta like bananas. I only like to eat them when they just turn ripe. Right after the green is gone. I struggled with rather or not I liked bananas for umpteen years because they do have a certain appeal. They wear a cute little yellow jacket and they are portable, versatile snacks that are high in potassium and other vitamins.

The other day, I was all ready to grab a banana for a post-workout snack and wouldn't you know it the 'nanas had brown spots on them. Yuck. I did try and eat one, but it was just too sugary and ugghhh...

What to do? I had about five over ripe bananas. Surely, I couldn't just toss them. Oh yeah, I could make some banana bread --old habits die hard. I had all the ingredients. So I took out a stick of butter and two eggs. Once the butter and sugar were at room temperature I was set to get baking. But, as I reached for the mixing bowl I started thinking how ridiclous I was being. I guess, it's safe to say, I temporarily went bananas. I mean, I almost baked a loaf of banana bread (which would contain approximately 3000 calories for the loaf). Instead of just tossing the bananas which cost no more than one buck. Really. I put everything back in the fridge and tossed the bananas. I'm on a mission to be Fit by 40. Banana bread be gone.

A Better Me, A Better You

Steve told me long ago, that one day I would be a personal trainer too and I just looked at him, like-- whatever. Low and behold he was onto something. Starting Monday, I will begin taking courses in the Fitness Trainer program at Clark College. 

In the midst of finding myself and losing 170 lbs. I feel it would be a injustice to myself and others to go back to a normal job. I need to work in a profession where I share my passion. It's just a natural progression -- the next step. My new found love for health and fitness is not just a trend. I want to live a healthy, fit lifestyle forever. So, becoming a trainer will increase my knowledge and help me further understand my body and it's nutritional needs. In turn, the more knowledgable I am, the better resource I can be for others. This is going to be fantastic learning opportunity for me. I'm going to be super, duper busy though so my blogging time will probably be decreased to a few times a week. Of course, I will keep y'all updated on FB as much as possible.  I'll continue to pursue other endeavors: motivational speaking, cooking classes, and writing the book. So fasten your seat belts folks this is about to be one heck of a ride!

My classes for Fall '11: 

1. Exercise Techniques
2. Wellness Coaching - super excited about this one!
3. Structural Kinesiology
4. Food and your Health
5. Fitness Wellness

Champion

A recent gritty, exhilirating workout with my personal trainer, Steve, revealed to me why working out is so much better with a trainer.

• They (trainers) customize a workout specifically for you, your body composition, and goals.
• They help you with your form. Form is crucial so that you get the best out of your workout and of course so you don't hurt yourself.
• They help you achieve your goals by keeping you focused. They keep your eyes on the prize. 
• Working out with a trainer makes the time go by so much quicker.  

And, if they are anything like, Steve they will push you to be your best. He motivates like no other.  As he is working you to the core, he throws around catch phrases like: "This is what champions do. You are a champion." I mean, really. With someone on your side saying things like that -- the workout is inevitably better.

Word to the wise: All trainers are NOT created equal and results may vary.

Overjoyed and overwhelmed

So much going on -- mostly all good stuff. Mainly, everything I ever wished for, but no matter, I'm still a little baffled by it all. I've made so many wonderful connections and with the help of some media coverage I am reaching more and more people every day. What an amazing feeling!

July:              Featured on the front cover "The Columbian"
August:         TV debut, on AM Northwest
                      Featured in "The Columbian"
                      "Farewell Fatso!" penned as a book, coming soon...
                      Motivational speaking debut @ Courtyard Village
September:   Featured on the front cover "Portland Observer"
                      Healthy Cooking classes at Chuck's Produce
                      Photo shoot for upcoming article in "SU Magazine"
                      Motivational speech @ Courtyard Village

There's much more in the works. I currently have dates into February 2012. Whoa, Nelly! Beyond all of this, I'm a mother, daughter, friend, and in the midst of it all I'm on a mission to be Fit by Forty. I want to continue down this path to a better lifestyle for me and for you. Very excited, grateful -- overjoyed, but I have to admit I'm a little overwhelmed.

The Shift

Life's going well, very well. The universe is opening up one door after another for me and then BANG! a thunderous jolt. A shift in the universe slammed the door and forced me to deal with something that I should have dealt with on my own. It was a situation that I never really openly talked about and was sorta like a dark secret. It was something that a long my journey to become an awesome person inside out was going to thrawt my growth. I've had a few days now to process what happened and I know this for sure --  the shift in the universe is not a bad thing. C'mon universe work it out! 'Cause quite frankly sometimes I'm too stubborn and stupid.

A diamond goes through a strenuous process of  planning, cleaving or sawing, bruting, polishing, and final inspection before we ever see it sparkling on display at a jewelry store. I'm a diamond, and in order for me to shine, sparkle, and dazzle I have to go through the process.Thank you universe for making a shift, and helping me be the best me. I'm right where I'm suppose to be. Doing exactly what I'm suppose to be doing. There is so much good work I will do for myself, the folks of the community, and beyond. I'm a diamond in the rough and I will shine, shine, shine.


***I'm not ready to disclose what happened last week, but I'll say the events will make for a compelling chapter in my future book.

Healthy Cooking 101: Mediterranean Style

Friday evening, I hosted my second Healthy Cooking 101 class at Chuck's Produce. I took my guests on a culinary trip to the Mediterranean: Organic chicken breast with a unique blend of seasonings -- cumin and cinnamon, kalamata olives, grape tomatoes, feta cheese, atop crisp red leaf lettuce served with a choice of freshly prepared lemon vinagrette or hummus.

A great group of folks and good food made for a delicious time!  Thanks to everyone for coming out and to my dear friend, Jamie for the wonderful photos. Here's a peek at some of the pics (See more on FB). Enjoy.

Details about October classes coming soon...

The return of Healthy Cooking 101

Whoa! 25 folks turned out to check out my techniques for whipping up Asian Lettuce Wraps. I think it went really well.  They soaked up my cooking techniques, raved over how good and fresh everything was, and laughed at my jokes. There are a couple of things I will fine tune for future classes, but all in all - yeah!

Thanks to everyone for coming out - hope to see you again - maybe this Friday. Eh?  A HUGE thanks to Chuck's for having me, us. I'll let the photos tell the rest. Enjoy!

Next class: Friday, September 16th @ 6 p.m. - Mediterranean lettuce wraps

Light

I've experienced some pretty dark moments in my life. I've come to learn those dark moments are the most defining moments. It's taken me sometime, but I no longer question the darkness instead I embrace it. I accept that everything will work out for the good. I've come to realize that out of the darkness there is ALWAYS light. Sitting still with myself, wrestling with my emotions and feelings, in dark moments have helped me become the person I am today. I am right where I'm suppose to be in life. Doing exactly what I should be doing.  I'm grateful, thankful, and full of joy, love, and peace.  After my debut motivational speech a gentleman told me, "Your message is a gift from God." Last Friday, I was able to share my gift again and I tell you as I looked out in the audience and saw all those wonderful faces, I was, and still am blinded by light.



L: Blog follower, Debbie 
R: Gym buddy, Drea

L: Laurie, Marketing Director
R: Linda, my wonderful manager



Courtyard Village staff





My first check from motivational speaking...
Does this mean I'm a professional now?



My First



My first



We all remember our first. First kiss, first love, first... I am celebrating my first pair of Levi's. As an obese person, I wasn't able to fit into name brand clothing. At last, I can fit into Levi's 550s. I love the fit - they are comfortable. They don't get saggy after wearing them for a while --they fit me perfectly for the length of the day. I love the true blue denim color too. This pair has an extra special meaning because my mother bought them for me. As I continue to shed the pounds, I will start to eye designer name brand jeans like, True Religion and Ed Hardy, but Levi's are classics and I'll never, ever forget my first. 

Full circle

I have so much to tell y'all about my fabulous trip to Seattle, my time on campus at Seattle University and the photo shoot for SU Magazine, but quite frankly, I'm pooped. In the next few days, I'll regroup and write a longer, more comprehensive blog post or not. Maybe these photos will speak for themselves and say everything I want to say and more. I've come full circle, my friends, full circle.

"Victory is reserved for those who are willing to pay its price" ~Sun Tzu

 The hill that alluded me as an obese person

Not only was I able to sit in it, but cross leg too

These stairs once intimidated me, no longer

Dreamin'

If this is a dream please don't wake me up. I am so happy, content, at peace, and full of love and joy. For once in my life my happiness is not predicated on someone or something. My happiness comes from within. I believe more and more everyday that "Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself." I am so very grateful for everything.

Shopping is fun!

I'm discovering lots of new things everyday --  shopping for clothes is actually kind of fun. I use to dread shopping and trying on clothes, but as of late I just grab my size off the rack and head to the fitting room. Last night, I tried on multiple outfits. Even left the dressing room a couple times and came back with new items to try on. Unheard of as a big girl. Heck, that would be way too much work.

I must add, I NO longer need to shop in the plus size section. I can shop juniors and misses. Actually, I start in juniors first, followed by misses, and then I still make my way back to the plus size section. What can I say? Old habits die hard. Surely, I can still fit some items from plus size, but it's no longer, mandatory. Heavy sigh. What a good feeling!

Healthy Cooking 101 is back!

Don't you wanna come?

Funny how things just work themselves out. The universe has opened the doors for me in so many ways lately. Thank you. Thank you. Those who have been following me for a while, remember my healthy cooking classes last summer? Well, I really hadn't considered teaching the classes anymore. I figured my life had taken a different course. Recently, one of my class participant/friend even asked me about hosting another class. I politely told her no.

Then, the other day, I was talking with a lady about furthering my career in public speaking. She was offering me tips and pointers, suggesting that I join Toastmasters International. She went on to tell me about a Laughing Yoga class she teaches at my favorite grocery store, Chuck's Produce & Street Market. I thought hmm...maybe I could speak there. Long story, short I contacted the marketing department at Chuck's and instead of  speaking I've been given the opportunity to host Healthy Cooking 101 classes at my favorite store in their beautiful, spacious kitchen. Yes, Healthy Cooking 101 is back!

My first two classes in September will feature lettuce wraps. I will talk about the versatility and ease of preparing them and YOU get to sample all the goodness. There is NO charge for the classes. Yeah, that's right NO charge. Just make sure you sign up at the front desk.

Asian Lettuce Wraps from my class last summer

Monday, September 12th from 6 - 7 pm
Asian Inspired Lettuce Wraps

Friday, September 16th from 6 - 7 pm Mediterranean Inspired Lettuce Wraps


The classes are free and open to the community. Please help me make my debut at Chuck's one to remember!  Click here to see the schedule and details Chuck's Produce & Street Market.

Chuck's Produce and Street Market
13215 SE Mill Plain Blvd.
Vancouver, WA 98684

Rappers and Athletes

I envy how rappers and athletes can openly celebrate their victories. Ever listen to a rap song? They boast about themselves how they come from the bottom up. I think that's part of the reason I like to listen to rap. I mean, it would be nice to just say something like what Drake says without feeling self-conscious: "Everyone who doubted me is asking for forgiveness. If you ain't been a part of it at least you got to witness..." Oh and this is another favorite line of mine: "Started off local, but thanks to all the haters, I know G4 pilots on a first name basis." Wow! Talking about saying how you really feel. I love it! Maybe instead of motivational speaking, I should be a rapper. Ha ha.

After a killer lob, Serena Williams, pumps her fist in the air and screams, "C'mon!" Just pumping her self up and letting her opponent know she's juiced. Kobe Bryant goes to the hole and then celebrates with his teammate by bumping chests. I'm never offended by their actions because they are simply celebrating their success. What's so wrong with that? I say nothing. Heck, we all should celebrate our successes more often.

I have to be ME

Greeting September with a smile

Hello, September. I don't want to start you off on a negative note, but sometimes it's best to not hold things in. So forgive me for greeting you with negativity. Please be assured that there will be no more negativity on my part this month.

With that said, I'm on a mission to be the best person I can be. I'm fine tuning myself as I grow and learn. Again, I say this is a transformation from the inside out. By creating Farewell Fatso! I've put myself, my journey on public display. So I can expect from time-to-time to receive not so positive comments or feedback. That's just part of it. Lately, though there's been a monkey on my back and frankly I'm tired of carrying it around. I feel as if some folks really aren't rooting for me instead quite the opposite.

I have to be me. I'm a complex person with several layers. Sorry to offend, annoy, or make you feel less than for being me. Here's what I say to those not on my team: You don't have to be on my team. I'm going to make it with or without your approval or support. Please keep your negative thoughts and attitudes far away.  I was telling my dear friend about comments that have been made. Here's her touching response:


"...The rest of us get so much benefit from you that it doesn't matter. They just aren't ready to face themselves or the world. There's nothing you say that isn't worth hearing about repeatedly unless you're an ugly hater that doesn't want to face facts about yourself personally. DO NOT let that get to you.  I spent months watching, reading, hearing what you said and not being ready. But I am not a hater, besides I love the dickens out of you so I kept on. At any rate, my point is by doing so and with the blessing of you sharing...I am getting control of my life back. Baby steps all be it, but I'm coming back. I feel lots better. Not because I am thinner, but because I am just plain better and slowly getting more control back. I feel better that I control my food and it doesn't control me. I am slowly seeing me for who/what I really am and not all that negative talk all the time. What next? It could be anything. I could get out of this loveless relationship I'm in or maybe even find a way to bring love back to it. Who knows? But I do KNOW this....you my friend are so very responsible for much of this. I take credit for doing it myself. But IDK if I could have done it without you sharing your journey. It helped like flip a switch in my brain. I am not you by any means. But because of you I am a better me. I may not have articulated how I truly feel very well, but I think you might get it. So please girl, don't take it away from me because of some folks that haven't been saved can't handle the truth about themselves. I'm serious, and I can't imagine my life is the only life you've touched so deeply. Maybe our friendship has made your story hit home a little harder than if you were a stranger to me, IDK what ever it is.... You are amazing and you let me know I can be amazing too." xoxoxo ♥♥ 

There's lots of positive stuff going on in September and based on my already full calendar. I have a funny suspicion, dare I say, September may trump August. I'm so very excited about sharing my story with more and more people and inspiring folks to action.  September 2011 will be sensational!